I Love Myself With The Way I Am

I'm emotional, sensitive, easy to angry and easy to love...

Maybe I'm not cute, not pretty, not attractive...

I just fat girl, with low ability and low experience...

Maybe i don't have power to change the world...

but even so.. I love myself with these all include..

I love myself with the way I Am..

I don't try to said i don't have things to change, there's a lot there..

but i don't need to change myself because i hate, i just change because i love, and i wanna be better for myself.. not for anybody, not for other shake.

i will change my bad habits to make the better me..

and even it's hard..

i will try the best...

Time flew.. all things gone so fast before i catch them all..

it's already graduate time, and it's already time for me to think more about future..

i still don't have any plan..

i just can step one by one through my resolution and hope..

"there is a will, there is a way."

i really hope so.. ^_^

2011 already februari already and it's 7th already!!

Time flew.. i very agree with this phrase.. look how much time i'd passed with nothing result?

maybe i have to work more harder, but really.. i realize my lazy bone these days.. :(

i should change myself before bothers anyone with my condition! i've a lot of things to do and oh my God!! i don't even do something yet and it's already 7th february 2011!! gosh!!

i open my resolution ehem ehem.. what have i wrote there?
first, i open the brown envelope and smiling on my jemsey scotland guy! hehe.. james mcavoy!!
1. my academic.. oh big stone in my life.. i've finished it in 10 days count!! :(

okay let's deal with this one! and do diet.. well, this one important.. i need to be pretty in my graduation party, right?? >,< ahahay!!

okay, two on focus!! morning come, and i gotta rush on this two!! yay!! pray for me all.. thanks

Mama Yang Hebat

Gue punya nyokap yang luar biasa, sampe-sampe gue ngerasa dia terlalu baik untuk dunia ini. Dia sangat perhatian dan pengertian pada siapa saja, bahkan kelembutan hatinya terkadang membuat gue menjerit ngga tahan. Gue ngga yakin bisa hidup kayak gitu, jujur aja gue juga ngga yakin akan memilih hidup seperti itu, maksud gue... di dunia yang kayak sekarang ini, orang yang terlalu baik hanya akan diinjak-injak dan dibuang kayak sampah.

Hatinya lapang... bahkan mungkin seluruh dunia muat didalamnya, dia menyadari kesusahan orang lain dan selalu bersedia membantu. Kadang dia menumpahkan keluh kesahnya padaku, dan aku semakin kelam dalam kebaikan hatinya. Dia sosok baik yang terlalu baik bagiku, dia memikirkan banyak hal kecuali dirinya sendiri...
dia adalah satu-satunya pertimbangan ku dalam mencapai mimpiku.

Bayangkan jika kamu harus menyakiti satu orang yang begitu baik untuk mencapai mimpimu, apa kamu sanggup? Gue ingin membahagiakan dia dengan apa yang selama ini diinginkannya, melepaskan dia dari kesusahannya, tapi mimpi-mimpiku tidak sejalan dengan itu, lantas aku harus bagaimana?

Kalau saja mama ku adalah perempuan bawel yang selalu mencampuri urusan ku atau apalah yang bisa membuat aku tidak begitu menyayanginya... sayangnya dia adalah mama hebat lengkap dengan segala kekurangannya...